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famhuiwen. as i write this post, i sort of want you to see it. and not. so well, just leave it up to fate, destiny, affinity- whatever you call it. if you happen to read or not.

today was suppoedly a good day. until i read your blog… and then read the bad things that you have kept in yourself. but you stopped the last message so… idk what you are thinking. looking back at the messages, whatever you thought of today was also uncalled for and everyth. i miss you definitely lots cuz nth’s gonna change my love for you. but, if the relationship is too demanding alr, and then you mentioned you dont even want a relationship then im quite.. blur. you seem okay to me in rl, and it was like so happy when we wanted to start afresh but. :/ things isnt going the way it should be going. if you think it doesnt hurt me.. think again. all the late nightsssssssss. and now i just dont feel like doing anyth. i need you, but i cant be selfish. jlhw. 3. 27.24.

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hey huiwen

advice.

First you have to determine who did the breaking up. If you are grieving over the broken romance, chances are that you are the one who was dumped (for lack of a kinder word)! As a teenager, you are going through the transition from childhood to adulthood, and your emotions are extra intense at this time. You need to let your emotions out; cry if you need to. This is where the tissues come in handy. Crying is a great stress reliever, because it unleashes all of your pent up emotions. There is nothing wrong with crying. If you are embarrassed, cry alone or with a trusted friend, family member or pet. Step 2While performing step one above (crying, that is), let yourself listen to some sad music. If you have any pictures or mementos from when you were dating your now ex-boyfriend or ex-girlfriend, put them in one of the shoe boxes, which you will label “past” with the magic marker. It is very important that you do NOT put your ex on a pedestal. The amount of crying that you do does NOT mean that your past love was your true love and that this was the one and only. It only means that this person came along at a time in your life when you were just beginning to learn about relationships, and you opened your heart fully to this person without the fear of being hurt. An important thing to remember is that although it hurt, it means that you ARE capable of love, and that you WILL love again. By the way, although it FEELS like true love, what you may be feeling is infatuation. As you get older, you will learn the difference. By the way, put a used tissue into the old box. Put in a tissue that you cried on, NOT one that you blew your nose with. Step 3If you have trouble taking your ex off of a pedestal, you may want to try thinking of him or her in a different way. What I am about to suggest may seem seems to some as immature, but it is good for a laugh, and laughing is very therapeutic. Some things you can try: Picture your suave ex-boyfriend doing a silly dance in a dress and high heels or your ex-girlfriend cleaning up dog poop with her bare hands while wearing a jester hat or clown wig. While you are doing this, play some upbeat or even silly music. Don’t play sad music while doing this, or you may feel guilty. Picture yourself looking suave and confident, smiling and enjoying yourself WITHOUT your ex. There IS life after your ex. Step 4Now, look into the mirror. What do you see? If you were a member of the opposite sex, would you be attracted? Is there something about yourself that you want to change? Maybe, maybe not. Often, it is what is INSIDE of us that may need to be changed, and NOT what is on the outside. If you are often complimented on your looks, then it is probably a self-esteem issue, which has taken a beating after this break-up. If you see a few things about yourself that YOU would like to change, then do it. But don’t do anything drastic. You are a unique person, who is beautiful in your own way. If it is just a matter of personal grooming, then do what it takes to look and feel your best. If you have any bad health habits that may be contributing to you not looking your best, then take steps to correct them, not just for vanity, but for your health. If you can think of any mistakes you may have made in the relationship, such as clinging to your ex too much, whining, being sexually promiscuous, or not keeping dates, then you should resolve to try not to do that in your next relationship. Be aware, though, that you may not have done ANYTHING wrong, and it could have just been that the relationship has run its course. Your ex could be the one with the problem. Remember, he/she has broken up a relationship with a terrific person, YOU! Step 5While doing this, play some happy, upbeat music. Write down all of YOUR good points on a piece of paper. I’m sure that you can think of some. Find pictures of yourself where you are dressed up and looking good. If you can’t find any, put on your favorite outfit, fix up your hair and/or makeup and ask a friend or family member to take a picture of you. Smile in the picture. A smile is the BEST beauty enhancer I can think of. Now put that picture PLUS your list of good points in the other shoe box and label it “PRESENT AND FUTURE”. Put the “PAST” box into a closet in your room, but keep the “PRESENT AND FUTURE” box in a place that is easily accessible, but NOT where a sibling might find it.

Back.

JLJJ

Been a long time since i posted here. Just needed a place to express my feelings and I guess this is it.

不应该靠近　才不会动心　
不应该怀疑　才不会伤心
不应该任性　才不会放弃　
我不该太爱你　Too young…
要怪只怪我们都太年轻
把爱情当作是个游戏机　Too young…
就算死一次还有复原力

Tomorrow SemiFinal match against ACJC at MJC field 5pm! Hopefully we can progress on to the final and clinch the champions.

Don’t be distracted.

Let’s see. The thing I spend most time now on is… listening songs. Imagine taking bus+lrt+mrt rides of about 1hr 40mins every trip, 2 trips a day, sometime even 4 trips a day. Yea, you get the idea.  Hmm. So, shall share two songs that are most of the time on repeat! Start with an oldie-turned-rock by MiLuBing, Guo Huo.

Heard the original version from i-forgot-where. Super old song alr, but still super nice.

Then a more ‘in’ song. At least its still less than a year?

What about now?

Super crap post. LOL. Okay, so yea got a 9 for O’s. And next destination is alr set. Schooldays gonna be tiring, reaching home around 930 at the earliest. Guess there’s a need to find time somehow. Anyway to those who did well, congratulations! Those who didn’t, don’t blame yourself or anyth, it’s not really fair to judge someone by just that one examination. Just tell yourself you must do better the next time around. A levels / Diploma, etc. Best of luck!

Think I also have nothing much to update now. Absolutely ( is that how u spell ) boring routine life. Anyway quite a number of AHS people are entering vj through sports. Like Jiajie, Yicheng, 2 netball girls whom i dont know what name. Yea quite cool.

So, Sunday was quite a bittersweet experience. Along with the zhonghua peeps, we played in the soccer tournament at.. BOON LAY, but was well worth it. Totally thrashed one team 6-0 and that was probably the highlight of the day ( for me at least ). Yea, charcoal bears are strong

Oh yea and chinese new year’s coming too. Good time to go visiting and get some $$  And I feel like eating seoul garden! No link but, that’s the way I am. 

 Okay, finally – updated

Archive.

I’m not feeling quite good right now, and in fact- lousy.

I thought I played like sh*t today, and I think it’s obvious to many around. The problem is I do care about the opinions of others. Not in the mood right now. It’s match at SRJC tomorrow and I so wanna hide.

Lack of confidence, reassurance, what not.

6 and couting now.

The truth is, 27 is a special number to me.

and; good luck to all taking results on the twelve.

First post… again.

New year new blog. 2009. Oh and, don’t have to relink if it’s too troublesome or anything. As to what JLJJ means, I’ll leave that open. Guess yourself if you wanna, use your wonderful imagination. But on a sidenote; it’s quite um, DUH type of answer.

Been quite some time since I typed here in wordpress already. So yea, before I start things on 2009, I kinda did a reflection on the year 2008.

Basically, there are just two words I wanna say to the many people out there. One of ’em is  Sorry and the second is ThankYou.

Well definitely sorry to anyone whom I’ve offended. I know sometimes I may piss you guys off, but you don’t show it. For that, I feel most guilty and I apologise. But throughout the year, I guess I wanna say sorry the most to xueting. When you first called me at like, August2007, from then on, it’s kinda be a very weird thing. So yea, dbq that I we went from friends to strangers to idk what, on-off talking? =/ I know I owe you quite alot, sorry.

On the other hand, thanks to many who’ve been friends, helpful, kind, anything. There’s too many to name but likewise, thanks zhengyong for being a wonderful friend. Since knowing each other in P5, this is the seventh year of friendship with this new year. I’ve done many stupid things time and time again but thanks for being forgiving and stuffs.

 Finally, sorry & thanks to a special guy. Sometimes I lose my temper at you ( but cuz i have poor anger management ) , but you were patient and understanding. You said once that you were slow in knowing how others feel etc, but no, you’re one outstanding lad. Your words are also able to console people, making them feel cared for. And, your insights are one of the most unique I’ve ever came across. I know you won’t like this up here, but you’ve been a super very good friend of mine. My thanks of the year.

Anyway came back from the match against TemasekAcademy. Lost to their bunch of players, or bodybuilders rather. Final score 1-3. Sorry I lost my temper is all I can say.

So in this new year, hopefully I’ll make it into the soccer team. I know I’m not among the best, but I’ll work hard and do my best.

Happy New Year to everyone!