I’m genuinely feeling sad. Again.
Im sick. I feel very uncomfortable. I remember i once said the best medicine is for people to care when you are sick. But i dont get the best medicine now.. My dear fhw is actually still angry at me and doesnt reply my msges when all i want is just to be cared and loved.
Been spending late nights with you, getting to sleep late and then waking up early the next morning for work. Im not regretting a single thing. Yet maybe its contributed to me falling sick. I cant fight it. But all i hope for is for you to just show care.
I remember when i couldnt rush down to you when you fell sick. I had to study for exams the next day. Yes i admit i was wrong for not being well prepared enough to take time off. But while studying i always talked to you and cared for you even when you sounded pissed off. Now im not even angry.. Just super sad. And you would run off to have a 1-on-1 date with chunkit. I mean, if you are meeting a group of friends. I would understand that its hard to rearrange the schedule of so many people, and you have to go ahead with it. But your boyfriend is sick. And its going out with another guy one to one. You wouldnt spend more time with your boyfriend to turnup on time for your date. Sigh. Thats what makes me sad.. and the worse part is you dont show care, but continue to be angry at your boyfriend. Your sick boyfriend can just lie on bed at home and wonder how happy you are going out with another guy. Its really sad that i dont get loved nor cared. Sick+sad makes pet shark super down..
Just an update: 38.3.. sigh.
